feeling kind of down, upset, unhappy and.... ahh!!! i don know!!!
i really don know why because i feel that my surrounding is changing and things seem to be worse than before... much worse (i guess...)...
i don know why is this happening to me this or may be this semester or may be this year... just feel that i cant fit to the people around me anymore... just feel like crying... nearly cried...
i just really feel like leaving this country for good... but think again, leaving this country might be so so much worse than now... afterall, leaving a familar place to a strange and totally unfamilar place with no one i know and no place to go... is indeed much worse than now?? will it be worse??? no one know anyway...
now all i hope that 2010 will be a better and slightly smooth year... that is all my wish now.... HAIX...